oh my god
the weekend went really bad
i binged a lot
but today was good
i ate
1 bowl of pasta
but May is going to be a bad month
i have half term and work experience which means i am going to have to eat properly
it was well hot today and i want to get a tan i just need to get my body in shape for the beach
i wish i could make myself throw up after i ate
but i just cant
...
contemplating buying a calory count book
..

6 slices of pizza
salad

3 duck pancakes
1 prawn
some sweet and sour curry

1 bowl of pasta

okat so yesterday doesn't count cuz i was still binging
today i ate:
1 celery stick
4 slices of cucumber
and a very very big bowl of pasta
that's a start anyways
but its Freya's birthday so there's gonna be cake and wagamamas
and then there's vicky's part anf there's gonna be pizza and sweets and then there'll be cake on monday too
i don't know what to do
maybe i just wont eat anything next week

i have no will power
the walks didnt work that well
i am now a fatty
did a massive binge
will now go on a major diet

im going away today
to the lakedistrict
i cant wait to go
its gonna be walks every day
woo gonna get fit
anyway easter is comingto and im dreading that
im just going to have to be very strong willed
well wish me luck
see you in 2 weeks

i feel sick
i spose that serves me right though
so far today i have eaten a bowl of cereal
and loads and load of sweets which have made me feel sick (at myself and physically)
maybe i should just throw up
and i just had dinner
fucking hell i ate a lot
1 sausage
mash
leek and cheese sauce
a bowl of natural yoghurt with bannana and crunch
1 biscuit
and a maid of honour
im gonna see the wombats
AHHHHHHHHH

bowl of cereal
celery stick
bowl of stir fry

bowl of cereal
obegene and parmesan bake
half a slice of toast
1 stick of brocoli